tensions

We have this film showing.. and we watched shake,rattle and roll a horror movie.. and i was like "matatakutin" as ALWAYS. Anyways,bcoz of my fear, I called classmates to sit beside me.. First,its Bernadette but she refused coz she found comfortable for where she've seated. Alright,I dont want to wached horror movie w/out any persons beside me.. esp. when the lights are off.. takot tlga ako.. So,I called another one w/c is Jerick but when he refused,Ygay who is my crush lol read the other entries I've posted,he's the one I mean. Okay, he sat beside me so my fears will be gone? Or was he only like to sit beside me? ...and you know what? all i can feel that time is tension mostly when our arms touched each other. You know,Ive been missing him all time!

I love him..he's my friend..He talked to me..joked to me..tell me interesting stories.. I care for him then I woke up in the morning,I found out that I already love him..yes,I'm in love with him.. He cares for me..treat me as if no one ever treat me that way before.. I thought he loves me too.. Thought he felt the same way as I do.. but then,I'm granted I'm wrong.. He loves lots of girls..then,another girl.. I lost him..:(

I hate her.. I hate every girl that he had loved. But then again,I have no choice..I have to give up coz he loves her and she felt the same way too

I have to say GOODBYE...

but I'LL BE RIGHT BACK next time!

It's 9:15 in the evening..but I still did not prepare myself to bed. How can I recover? How can I move on in this pain? what happened in my first love is what had happened just RIGHT NOW.
should I still know me? Obviously NO. I don't really know what's going on with me;in my life..I can say it's so very complicated..

yes it is

...

was it?

kutabol kuwts(quotable quotes)

Suddenly,I saw his PERFECT SMILE
Am I having feelings for this person?
My days are always brighter when I
catch those funny eyes,hear that loud
laugh and the corny jokes. My world
was always been friends since I can remember.
He was my classmate,my best friend,we'd
DREAM TOGETHER lots of things life
would always be there for me when I'm sad.
For me,he is more than just my best friend if
only I could say and show what I feel..